Question
I'm having trouble with trusting my partner, I know she is not cheating, but i get horrible visions and dreams. i admit i was in a bad state which made me uncomfortable to be around, trying to resolve this, but when ever i go sleep the next morning I'm angry and usually break up the relationship. i know something is wrong cause no one seems to want to help me "psychic people". there are a few people i knew who are jealous of me and have been trying to ruin my life. my question is what is happening to me and why am i always getting these bad feelings of my partner.
Answer
It's time to wake up! You are being called into action, and the more you ignore this call, the more pain and suffering you will inflict on yourself and the people around you.
If you love your partner, you must take committed action or else you would lose her, if you haven't already. As a matter of fact, it is most likely that the only reason she is still with you is because she needs your behavior to wake HER up from whatever fantasy perception she has about you and about life.
My advice to you is to be totally open and vulnerable with her. In my opinion, this is your only chance to have you both transform at the same time, and if you will be able to do that and to support each other in the process, your relationship will become real and strong and empowering for both of you.
My advice to you is to open up in front of her, be totally open and express your inner most fears. You must NOT say anything about her, but rather make it all about you. These are YOUR fears, YOUR doubts, YOUR suspicions. She is only the trigger, and you should thank her and love her for that. She is showing you the ugly price you are paying by holding on to them. Share yourself with her without holding back, and then make a commitment to change - not for HER sake, but for YOUR sake. Unless you transform, you will make yourself and the people closest to you miserable.
This is probably one of the hardest things to do, and very often it takes a major trauma to wake somebody up and make them aware of the price they are paying. It seems like you're almost at that point, and I am sending your strength and courage to face your biggest fear and conquer it. I can promise that compared to what you're experiencing now, paradise is waiting for you on the other side of this transformation. It won't be easy, and it will require hard work to maintain it, but once you set foot on that other side of this darkness, every part of your human being will suddenly make sense and be worth it.
